Losing my ambition

I think I left my ambition somewhere on a snow covered hill

I keep unpacking and searching but I can’t find it still

It’s not like losing religion because I’m not sure I had that 

It’s hard to lose something you don’t practice or are bad at

So what to do when you can’t find your ambition and motivation?

And you’re good at distraction and procrastination?

I wish I knew because I just want more vacation